For Jill

the gift of hope is given much by chance; for none may know how each other heart sings its dawning light. yet most precious of all is the one who dares – who takes the tiny dying star and gives it wings to help it shine anew. i cannot imagine a world without her gift […]

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Writing Mental Health: Madness & Endurance in Sagas of Sundry

“What is it that makes someone insane – that makes them deranged, irrational, crazy?” asks Mr. Wren, the deep-voiced narrator expertly acted by the ever-intense and wonderful Darin De Paul. This is not a new question to any kind of media – especially not in the Lovecraftian, 1930s-inspired setting of Geek and Sundry‘s latest edition […]

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Oblivion

you brush your teeth. change, gratefully, into your bedclothes. the dim light of your Kindle illuminates the room. next to you, he’s started snoring. you read to the sound, intermittent and infuriating, an hour passing without any effort at all. then your eyes begin to close, and you place the book aside. sleep. you’ll need […]

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Between Two Worlds

Sometimes, I feel like I exist in two different places. They aren’t simultaneous – often. Generally I am either in one – the waking world, the world of other people, the world where the mundanity of life exists – or I am in the other. The other is safer. It is contained entirely within my […]

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Finding (Head)Space to Write

I am always thinking about stories. This is a fundamental truth of my personality. You would think that this would mean that I spend a huge amount of my time writing, but the truth is – I don’t. I would, however, very much like to. The problem is that there is something else happening in […]

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Writing Mental Health: Small Steps, Big Effects

When I was a child, I systematically read through the entire primarily school library. Then the entire high school library. In all of the books I read, I never really learned about mental health. I didn’t know what it was. I wasn’t told about the different forms, or about how debilitating they could be. I […]

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Gratitude

I.   in the years that I was worse where I was angry and afraid you did not turn me away; you held my hand as I span,   nothing but a whirling storm. in the days after I tried to end it you let me sleep on your floor. you told me what safe […]

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Managing Mental Health & Self-Employment

Five years ago, I couldn’t have managed a part-time job – whether a traditional one, or a self-directed one. The process of moving forward from this has been a learning one, and it is not a situation unique to me. Many people who experience major mental health breakdowns find it difficult to return to work […]

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Writing Mental Health: Mundane Magic & Anxiety

When I was young, I looked to books to find myself. In the characters I read about, I tried to understand this mortal shell I was trapped in – what it meant, what it could be, how to survive it. By their examples I found aspects of myself; solace in seeing them succeed and strength […]

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