Triggered, And Other Difficult Words

We don’t always¬†choose the words we use. I realise that’s an odd thing to say. We do also always choose the words we use. But there are ways of speaking that we absorb rather than actively think about. I find myself using turns of phrase that my closest friends do, just because I’ve heard them […]

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My Bravest Friend

I remember you the day we got you; you wailed all the way home. Each speed bump was a horror, each turn a torturous swaying. We put you in the living room with everything closed off. It took you a while to come out – to realise we had stopped. For the first day I […]

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The Space To Learn Confidence

I used to be a relatively confident person. Not perfectly so, of course – but I wasn’t quiet. My reaction to being targeted by bullies was to be louder and more overt in my self, so you could hardly have called me shy – but that confidence was a performance. It wasn’t really me. When […]

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Unexpected

I have spent many years
learning to be prepared
learning to plan things out
and leave nothing to chance.

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8 Ways To Support Someone With Depression

In my many years of experience with depression, I’ve been incredibly fortunate to have a lot of people around me who have not only tried to support me, but have gone out of their way to make sure they’re supporting me in the right way. Not everyone is this lucky. So before I take you […]

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Things I Make & Where They Are

I make a lot of things now, and so it seemed about time that I do a roundup here on the blog of what I make and where. Let’s start with the obvious: I make blog posts! The schedule here on the blog is normal posts on Monday and Friday, and poetry posts on Wednesday. […]

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Almost

let’s destroy endings. let’s live forever in the perpetual almost. where there’s a world of what might be clawing to be heard by our hearts where anything is possible because everything is lying just the other side of a leap that we will never take, because the best place to be is here on the […]

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Suicide Isn’t A Choice, It’s A Symptom

CW: This post will frankly and extensively discuss death by suicide and suicidal ideation. I want you to stop for a moment and think about the words you use to describe suicide. What do you say about someone who’s killed themselves? That, for a start. You say they committed suicide; something along those lines. Almost […]

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Take Advice – But Only To A Point

There’s a lot of advice out there on the internet – for everything. Even in places that aren’t primarily designed to deal out advice. This blog, for example, is very often an advice blog, but that’s not its core functionality. It’s easy to get overwhelmed by advice, especially when it’s contradictory and confusing, and especially […]

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Trust

Sometimes I wonder how much of my anxiety comes from not being able to trust anyone or anything, because why restrict yourself to just being afraid that people will hurt you when you can also fear that things will break (just because it would be awful for them to). It’s pervasive, this problem with trust, […]

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