On Studying Creative Writing at University

I want to let you in on a secret: I’ve been seriously thinking about going back to university. When I was a teenager, there was one thing I wanted more than anything, and that was to go to Cambridge. I don’t, of course, just mean the town – I mean the University of Cambridge. I […]

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Like the Tide

drag me out like the tide I know is coming for me in time you will return me to the sand and firm ground I know this now, after all the times we have danced these steps that mean more than I can yet realise because I cannot see the fact that each time you […]

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My Relationship with Panic Attacks: It’s Complicated

Today, I want to talk about panic attacks. When I was 17-years-old, I was sitting in my A-Level English class. I was towards the back, but not in the very back row. The very back row was where the cooler people sat – or so went the delineation of teenage society. It was cool to […]

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I Binned My Schedule This Week – And It Worked?

Several months ago now, I told you all about the schedule I’d been trying to work to on a daily basis, and how much it had done for me. I also told you about the days where it didn’t work so much. I’ve been following that schedule in some form since November, and it’s made […]

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Raindrops

Content Warning: This poem discusses suicidal ideation and plans for suicide. If you are experiencing this, please reach out to someone – here are some resources to do so. When I was twenty years old, I walked from my new dormitory in Borough to London Bridge all the way along the high street, at lunchtime, […]

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Money: My Nemesis

Growing up, I was fortunate to live in a family where whilst we weren’t profuse with money, we also didn’t generally struggle to eat. There were periods that were harder, as with all households, but mostly we were comfortable. We didn’t go on holidays or do many extravagant things, but we had a huge house […]

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Scared to Discover New Things? Me Too

I have plenty of time to watch things, read things, play things. But very often, when something new comes out, I don’t. When everyone around me is getting really hyped up about this new show on Netflix, or a new book, most of the time I don’t watch or read whatever it is. Why? Because […]

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Holidays

when I was at school they made us talk about our holidays in French lessons. there was just one problem: I’d only been on holiday once, Disneyland when I was six, and I didn’t remember it. sure, I went to my grandparents each summer for a week so we could have time with them two […]

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On Friendship, and Learning To Be Vulnerable

I’ll let you in on a secret: I don’t really know how friendship works. Growing up, I was always the third, fifth, seventh wheel of friendship groups. I think I had opportunities to have closer friendships than I did, but I never managed to capitalise on them. I never knew how to. Because for most […]

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The Other Thing About Agent Applications…

The shopping bags are too heavy. I’ve overestimated, again, how much I can carry. I didn’t think my list for this week was even that long, but either I bought extra things or I just didn’t think about how heavy everything I was buying was. The first bit of the walk home – the downhill […]

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