Intrusive Thoughts

CW: Self-harm, suicidal thoughts. I like to think I can control my mind, but some things when imagined don’t go right. I dream and cannot control my left arm; it doesn’t lift, or turn – it just gets stuck. Sometimes if it’s quite bad my leg goes too, and then my dream is ruined through […]

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Writing With Pain

At the beginning of this year, I started experiencing pain in my hands. Sometimes, it was so bad that I couldn’t do anything but curl up on the sofa and try not to cry. The pain was in my fingers, my wrists – the joints and the bones themselves. After a couple of weeks, I […]

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Running a Blog with Depression

Prior to this incarnation of my blog, I started several other blogs. I tried blogging just with poetry, with serial stories, with thoughts about my life and therapy and recovery. None of those things really stuck for me, because I was so depressed I couldn’t make them stick. It has, obviously, stuck this time. It’s […]

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