A tidy house is a tidy mind. It’s trite, but in my experience it’s very true. Horribly so, in fact, because the problem with depression is…well, it makes you less able to do things like cleaning. Then you end up stuck in this messy building. Which makes you more, or …
Words
When I forget the hundred thousand things I want to tell you or if I can’t get the words into the conversation before it runs away from me, it feels like failure – like those hundred thousand things are slipping through my fingers and will never be real if I …
Freelancing, Failure and Forward Momentum
For about as long as I’ve had this blog (and maybe a bit longer), I’ve wanted to branch out into freelancing. I’ve done some freelance writing in the past, but primarily producing copy for things like advertisements rather than writing actual blog articles. What I wanted to do this time …
In Defence of Combat-Heavy Roleplay Games
I’m one of those people who looks for roleplay-heavy games. Whether it’s my tabletop games, my live games, my video games. I’m an immersive roleplayer, and I want to be able to zone into the gritty emotional stuff. In some circles, this is called ballgowning. But I also really, really …
Starting Over
starting anything from scratch is terrifying and also brilliant. there is nothing like the clean slate of a new start the hope of success. I wish that I could find this brilliant feeling in things I already do.
3 Reasons I Prefer Editing to Writing
Going through and editing my own work is a lot of fun. It’s more fun, in fact, than writing. I don’t mean really intricate copy-editing – I mean the part where you’ve written a draft and you’re now turning it into a better draft. The editing and rewriting stage, not …
The Great University Adventure: Open Day
Hey, you remember how in August I told you I was going to go to the open day for my local university? And that I was thinking of doing a Creative Writing MA? No? Okay, well go and read this post first, then. So fastforward to last Saturday. It’s the …
Achievement Hunter
When I am nestled at my deskwith another game on the screendo not think of me as lazy. Today I caught my hundredth pet and got the achievement for it, another star next to my name. Do you think these things meaningless just because they’re in pixels? Just because they’re …
5 ways to motivate yourself on a bad depression day
Sometimes with depression, you wake up and it’s just bad. Just awful. There might not be a reason you can see for it. You just woke up and everything was terrible and, somehow, you’ve got to find a way to motivate yourself through the day. I have days like this …
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Medication: being on it and coming off
Since my breakdown at 17, I have been almost constantly on some form of anti-depressant and/or anti-anxiety medication. The only times I wasn’t taking a medication were because I had, without medical recommendation, decided that I just wasn’t taking it anymore. Or for much shorter times, because I had screwed …
For Marius
The strangest thing about losing youIs that we haven’t just lost you.Somewhere a brother is grieving his twin,a storyteller is stepping through a gate,and shield bearers are kneeling in troubled memory. But here is what I like to imagine: In another world that is both ours and not, a man …