This year I'm forcing myself to do things I am terrified of - things that most people consider normal. This month, I go and get a haircut.
Your Normal Is My Scary: 3 – A Haircut
This year I'm forcing myself to do things I am terrified of - things that most people consider normal. This month, I go and get a haircut.
Phoenix
Phoenix - a poem about paving the way for those who are different, and how reaching for your dreams can make a path others can follow.
What to do when meditation is hard
I've been practicing meditation for a couple of months, but with my recent relapse it's become incredibly unpleasant. Here's how, and why I'm still trying.
Forwards, Ultimately
Straight lines aren't natural: remember that. A poem about recovery, the passage of life, and worrying that you've gone a little astray.
I Don’t Think I’m Lying About My Mental Health Anymore
For years I have tempered my anxiety symptoms with a mantra: you're just making this up for the attention. Problem is, I don't believe that anymore.
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Why ‘Why’ Matters
For a bit of background for this, you might want to read my most recent Patreon post. I have a problem – and the problem is, I still live every day of my life as if I need to desperately prove that I am worthy of existence. This fear of …
I’m not writing much fiction right now and that’s okay.
Let me totally honest: this blog post isn’t for you. It’s for me. Well, I’m hoping that it will be useful to you, too! But the amount I’m writing is something that weighs constantly on my mind. Because, you know, if you want to be a writer then…you’ve got to …
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Anxiety
there is a kind of tirednessthat aches itself through my bonesa resonant song of fatiguethat has nothing to do with my body.it is my mind’s creation,this deep-seated exhaustion,and the only solution for itis to hide,hide,hide awaywhere no one can find me –until I am ready to pretend myself confidentall over …
Anxiety Attacks & Aftermaths
Some cold callers came to my house this morning. Well, at least a week ago by the time you’re reading this. I’m still not convinced that they were legitimate. I know the sort of information you need about a person to commit fraud, and a lot of their questions were …
Your Normal Is My Scary: 2 – Bra Fitting
I’ve always had a difficult relationship with clothing. It’s partly, perhaps even primarily, tied to my anxiety over money. But it’s also the fact that, well, our world isn’t the best to women who aren’t the “standard” size or shape. Which in the UK is about 3 sizes and nothing …